let there be more light

My hands were shaking from anxiety when I kept d call,

She was gone n I had to face it all,

she promised to stay, n fled d very next day,

I called her all night until dawn..

I made a mistake in believing her in d first place,

I shouldn't have boozed at all,

I slept for 19 hours n that couldn't be booze only,

Did, she mix something in my drink?

incredible, the plot seemed incredible,

V had done d unthinkable,

n I wasn't getting any of it,

not even acknowledgement,

I saw a letter in my suits pocket,

I pulled it out with wrath,

It said"thanks",

Screw u b**ch,

I ran for my holster,

D glock 18 pistol was not there,

I contemplated what she could have done next,

N i knew thats the only thing when i was at my best,

I cried like a gal ,

n she flew with all the wealth,

I couldn't focus my mind to count the zeroes in the bag,

She had made love n was all that part o the plan,

I tread on the unknown n I killed a guy to find,

That she was dying,

I took her to the hospital and gave her my blood,

as i was the universal donor,

she winced as she tried to open her eyes,

even then she winked at me n said I was a loser,

I spat fury at her,

I asked if I was the victim of a plot or her greed,

She picked her right hand n showed me what she thought,

I said fuck u too n pulled her IV right away,

She said, u wont let me die,

cos that will kill u too.

I brooded on it n I did wat I thought was best,

I took the gun out from her purse,

I had plotted a plan,

I was long dead so I killed myself n framed her,

My dying words were" I love u but m not a loser"..

leap of faith

I was satnding right in front of him,
whom i had talked to all my life but had never seen;
He asked me for my acheivements,
He asked me what I had done all my life,
I told him,
I loved, I gave, I never hurt anybody, I helped,
He said," You have sinned".
dumbstruck, I began questioning myself,
I dont understand you,
You sinned,
I dint,
you did,
what was my sin...
Stupidity....

I was reborn..
I killed, I destroyed, I looted, I ruled d world..
I met him again..
He said ," you sinned"..
I wasn't stupid..
Yes you were'nt , You still are.
Now! are we gonna argue on grammar..?

I was reborn,
I lived on the himalayas,
I learned to conquer my mind,
I went without food for months,
I became the sage, the spiritual leader of the world,
I met him again
-"you sinned"

I was reborn,
I did nothing all my life,
I waited for the world to end,
It ended and i Knew I had got him cornered;
I asked him,
Mr.god, what do you think u r,
u aren't even god, if i dont call u tat,
for me, you are nothing without me;

He said, will u replace me for a while,
I would make a better god than u did,.
I took on with zeal,
I turned the world into an utopian one,
1000's o years went by n I was bored.
I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel cos there was no end,
I started playing with the life o those who believed in me blindly,
it was better than the monotous nothingness,
It was fun until I saw myself,
for it was just another victim of my fun,
but I was zealous of the human me.

N i met him again,
You sinned, he said,
"I was god"..
-u just thought so..

I was reborn...

For the records, m not stoned,,,,

I M WHO,
WONDERED ALWAYS YET,
?SHE WAS , WOMAN, MAGIC..
EVERYHTING KNEW ,
SHE ..
ME LOVED SHE..

The Suit

I was walkin down d aisle n it was never ending,
There were rooms n rooms n i couldn't comprehend it,
I whistled for d maid,
I wished I hadnt seen her face,
But i had seen it before on the dark night when she had killed,
I tried to read her mind n knew she had guilt,
but when she saw me, she felt relieved,
she thought she had killed me ,
n there I was, right in front o her gawking in her eyes,
Still as confused as ever was,
She moved away to give me way,
I walked on by, to see some more people,
thinking bout what happened to her,
I dashed into a kid,
He was running away from something n crying for help,
I thought I needed to do something,
But something was wrong,
the kid was laughing,
I turned my eye upwards to see d kids mom running with a glass o milk,
I realised at tat moment tat m paranoid,
I was trying find out why was I walking on that aisle,
It was meaningless n I wished it would end,
I saw a beggar on the way,
He was wearing a suit n his hair were grey,
I gave him my wallet n told him to colour em blue,
beggar said,"y? Cos wid that sulking face , thats wat suits u"..
I took my wallet back n his suit too,
I turned around n I hit d dead end,
I had got wat i wished "the end",
But it was far better walking aimlessly,
than sitting at the dead end for the wall to blow up,
so that u can walk on another aisle,
just with the diff colour carpet,
N i woke up wondering wit a crooked smile,
was that the answer to my question-'whats life",
My sweetheart called out for me n asked,
Whose suit is this?


p.s:poem's dedeicated to shridhar...
N i don know y...

My darling

I saw d time in my watch n i realised I was gazing at the sea,
The waves turned around and mocked at me,
I believed that angels are smothering me, holding me so that I can let them free,
It was d angels wish to see me happy but the angel wanted to depart,
I couldn't see d angel cos it was so dark.
I left d seashore n walked into the ocean for some air,
I sank deeper into the sand to realise who I am,
I told the fishes to send my message to my darling,
" U were so close to my eye that i couldnt see you,
u were so mine that I forgot u werent me,
infact m glad,cos if u were me
I wouldnt know u"..
The fish saw the angel and it tried to reach out for the angel,
as it took off from the ocean it couldnt just see n tried to hold to everything it could,
It fell into my darling's lap..
n said d dying words to her,
d tears rolled down from her cheeks,
n pierced d angels heart,
I wiped d tears n tried to save d angel,
I was so furious at my darling for it,
I split into two,
I wanted to kill my darling n save the angel,
I slit her throat and held d angel in my arms,
Angel said, " u killed me".
I wept all night to find by my side,
d coral in which my darling's tears fell n turned into a pearl,
n a letter wit d message n my initials,
D pen was full of blood,
I held it my hand n it was a sword,
I thought to my self "I had killed her"..
I saw my finger,
" D Ring with the same pearl with the angel's face etched in it" ,